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So last night things came to an ending and I was depressed, I do admit I cried, then I seen hes already flirting with other girls, like I was nothing to him...hahaha so why does that make it so much easier to move on, not sure but its time to laugh and shout: I'm officially single now!!! =D
Maybe this time I can get with someone my age, and not too obsessed . *cough*cough*
I don't care I mean shoot life goes on and I jUsT dOn'T gIvE a FuCk!! lol
I can actually be myself now, wow I just smiled. It's a new day. Sucks I have to work 11 to 7 now ( those hours drag onnnn!!!)
Maybe its a good thing though. I need some change, I keep craving change. =]
I'm going to school....maybe next Wednesday is when I'm taking that lame test to go into a school. Going for photography =3
This has got to be a sign to just go with it. haha he would only hold me back anyways. I'm not ready at all to settle down and marry at the age of 19 going on 20 hahaha nah! not at all, I still have life to live first and be wild and crazy for a little bit longer. My past wasn't good enough, lol okay..whose got a longer past? hmmm whatever, don't care, the past is the past. Cry me a damn river, so I can swim across it to move on to the next guy. So yeah I can't wait till I stop working at the beach now because I'm getting really sick of it, last year was great for some reason, this year just sucked. So maybe if the world does end, it was meant to be, if it doesn't second chances I guess maybe next year will be better =]
Fuck you and I love my friends and fans =]
  • Mood: Relief
  • Listening to: Bad Romance by Lady Gaga
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Mood: Love *ZtarDaze Aug 17, 2012  Student Photographer
Congratulations Hun!! You have a wonderful outlook on life and going to school and living your life for YOU is the best decision you could make! Trust me!! I married at the age of 19 and honestly I wished I had waited. I have always lived my life for others and just within the last year or so, I have learned to start living for me. I started school at the art institute and I am doing more things on my own and becoming me again. I am still married and even though it is definitely not always easy, it is worth it if you find the right guy! Don't rush into things! Take your time and find YOU and do the things you need and want to do!! You are an amazing woman and you are going to be just fine!!! Hugs love!!
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Mood: Love *xxbabyfatxx Aug 17, 2012  Hobbyist Photographer
see, there's girls my age, that i went to school with already married or engaged and they act like life is just so wonderful like a cinderella story, there too young to go on and settle down, i think. I always did say though, even when you talk to couples who got married out of highschool they will always say "never marry after highschool!" so i listen to my elders and people with wisdom. Thanks so much for being nice to me and reading my journal =]
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Mood: Love *ZtarDaze Aug 17, 2012  Student Photographer
Anytim hun! I'll be the first to admit that while I love my husband, marriage is not easy. I hate to admit it, but love is not all you need because it takes so much more than that to survive. It is hard and takes so much hard work and time and a lot of compromises and tears, but the good days usually tend to outnumber and outlast the bad! I promise, when YOU are ready and you know you have found the right guy then go for it! Otherwise, this is your time! Hugs!
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*xxbabyfatxx Aug 17, 2012  Hobbyist Photographer
That is exactly how I think, I don't want a dream because I know it's not going to be a dream, I know there's going to be fights, there's going to be ups and downs. I know that if something bad happened they would be there holding my hand and my tears. I've really observed my parents marriage a lot. They got married out of high school too. It does get annoying whenever they say "when I was your age I was married and holding a job" times aren't as good as they use to be, you could live on minimum and still be able to move out of the parents house. Anyways yeah it's a huge struggle I've noticed there is always fights over money and bills and who bought what. I am just waiting for that right guy though. I always wonder who he is going to be.
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*ZtarDaze Aug 19, 2012  Student Photographer
Oh honey, please ignore all the people that tell you "when I was your age" crap. That was then and this is now, Your now. Just because they did that when they were your age does not mean it needs to be repeated. Live your own life! Honestly, I have had a couple of jobs here and there but I can't seem to keep a job to save my life. Mostly it has just been a one income household. And yes things have been really hard lately but in the end, it is worth it! Trust me, when the right guy comes around, you will know it! And it will be worth everything!!
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*xxbabyfatxx Aug 19, 2012  Hobbyist Photographer
I can only hope =]
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Bravo for you! Photoaphy is a good idea, you're already very good. Don't think for a minte that you have to rush through life, there are no rules fr that.
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*xxbabyfatxx Aug 16, 2012  Hobbyist Photographer
thanks =]
yeah im just done it was a stupid thing anyways..internet relationships are horrible.
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